About Eden

I was in my early twenties, and we had just come back from a round the world trip, where we got engaged, and where I should have been high on life. But instead, I came back feeling confused about who I was, and what I wanted, paired with the fact being back felt like a massive comedown. 

 

Things began to escalate and I soon hit a severe low point, and was feeling completely anxious and lost.

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I was critical of other women and jealous in my relationship. I didn't know why I was unhappy, I was unable to eat properly, I cried A LOT, and I just wanted to sleep to escape from it all. I was freaking out and looking for something to blame, thinking that something must be making me unhappy. Was it my job? Was it my relationship? Was it the flat or town I lived in? Was it my friendships? I didn't know what to do, but I just knew that I didn't want to feel like this anymore. I had finally had enough.

 

I contacted the NHS about talking therapy, but they told me that there was a long waitlist, and I was worried about going to the doctor, to be sent away with no support, and only medication. 

 

Looking for other ways to help myself, I decided to begin moving my body and get healthy. I wasn't doing it to change my body, I was doing it to heal my mind. At the same time I started meditating, working on my mindset and challenging my thoughts, repeating positive affirmations to myself in the mirror. My husband (then fiance)  was so supportive during this time, and would leave positive messages and reminders around our flat. With consistent effort, I quickly started seeing such a huge mental shift! 

 

During this time, we were saving to travel South America. And by the time it got to this, I felt so much joy and love for the world. And this truly was one of the best times of my life. BUT, not all was as it seems, I still had issues with creating relationships, and kept new people at a distance, as I was worried they would trigger me into feeling those emotions again. 

 

Once back from travelling, I moved to South Wales with my husband to find a place we could call home. I started back at the gym, and there were yoga classes available. I so very quickly fell in love with yoga! I started practicing breathwork and meditation alongside my physical yoga practices, and I began to feel such a deep connection to myself. I now wanted deep meaningful relationships with other women. I wanted to be vulnerable and connect.  

 

Yoga allows you to grow self-awareness, and I soon realised that I didn't use to like or love myself, which was the root of most of my issues. Practicing all of these tools have helped me to love who I am, and create a life that I love aswell!

 

I am now such a kinder, more loving person. But it's important to remember that we are all on a journey. I am not always anxiety free, and I do have days where I experience low self-esteem, but I now have the tools I need in order to manage and process these feelings. Yoga always brings me back to myself and makes me feel a part of something much greater than me. 

 

My hope is to share everything I have learnt over the years, in a condensed simple way, to empower other women on their self-love journey.